Computer Games
I was lying in bed this morning (it was 7.15 and I was awake because I'd gone to bed at 9pm last night - nice...) and I was hiding under my covers from the outside world, thinking how wonderful it is to be safe for at least the net hour or so until I had to get up, and I starting dwelling upon the fact that all I really wanted to do for the rest of the day was sleep in and play computer games. I also know, however, that I need to do other stuff, like go to uni, get my window fixed on my car, do uni homework, ring a bundle of people about stuff and other stuff. The desire to run away from it all and play computer games was intense though, and I knew that I had to do something about it.
Reluctantly (very, very reluctantly), I said "God, please take this burning passion to play computer games and turn it into something productive." I hated saying that. Because I didn't want my desire to change into something productive. How logical is that?
Then I pondered; "God, why is it that I like playing computer games so much?" What ensued was a very enlightening and confronting conversation. I'm not sure if I like the answers to that question just yet, or how it helps me deal with this better, but here they are:
I like gaming so much because in a gaming world, there is no pressure placed on me by outside entities. I can't let anyone down in a gaming world. Letting people down causes me anxiety. Anxiety is not a nice feeling for me.
I like gaming so much because I can see results for little effort.
I also like gaming so much because it is a challenge that I take on of my own desire; I'm not forced into this activity by anyone else or by any other circumstances.
Anyway, I'm playing a game called "Sacred" at the moment and it's really cool!
posted by Dboy @ Tuesday, August 23, 2005
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Do you remember the Red Dwarf episode about the hyper-game: "Better than life"?
That's what we're getting you for your 400th birthday!
Actually, this whole blog, Oh evil Overlordlyy One, has been one Giant interactive simulation... you know, pretending that out there you are a 'teacher' and 'married' and stuff! Ha!
I agree, sweetheart!
Missing you down here at the convent in the wilds of Tasmania.
Have just been attacked by savage two headed natives from Poatina....
* fires blunderbus out of narrow window in stone tower on north wwing of convent, then ducks headfirst down the circular stairs to avoid flaming arrow!*
*trips on full length habit*
Ya! Ya! mein Herr, me too...
* Throws handgrenade at captain@merica*
Hahaha! You guys crack me up!
It's awesome that you can recognise that stuff in yourself Dboy. Yay for you! I'm not huge on comptuer games myself, but I do love playing racing games with other people. I love this game where you crash into stuff and you win if you caused the most ammount of damage. I forget the name of it. It's so much fun! I love Mario Kart too!
Do you mean Rekkastorvat? (or some strange sweedish name for Truck dismount)
like, and the guy with the truck and the wall and the white and such?
Hahaha... Yeah, you're right Pavlos. I don't need a reason to like playing games. I think my dilemma would've been better put in asking why I have such a desire to abandon everyday life and pour solely myself into a game, which is pretty unhealthy, loath though I am to admit it.
I have been told by many a people to see Red Dwarf, and I have not yet done so. Please don't yell at me too loudly.
Hehe... wanda said 'blunderbuss'. How does wanda know what a blunderbuss is? An old Chaos Dwarf fan...
Was it Carmageddon, Megan?
Hehehe... Truck Dismount. I love that game.
May have been carmageddom. I dont' think so thought. I think it was more crash party or something lame like that.
You would LOVE red dwarf Danny! You gotta see it! Ya smeg head!
Yay for mario kart! Anyone have it? Let's have a mario kart night!
I know!
Ok, there is no way that sega is better than nintendo!
you should probably look up smeg before you start calling people it
Look under smegma
It is great that you can recognise that in yourself Dboy. It shows a willingness to seek God, be told the truth and be open to change. The question is: Will you be content to look back on your life and see that you 'played it safe'? That you wasted countless hours in mindless fantasy? I realise everyone needs an escape/ outlet/ hobby but what happens when the hours spent in the outlet equal or even exceed the hours spent in the 'real world'?
I guess the question now is: Where to from here? What is this revelation going to achieve/ change in your life? What is God asking of you?
Would love to know your thoughts on this.....
Did you hear about that man that died after hours and hours of playing games without much rest? Ick...that ought to get some people getting out and about among the three dimentional beings... And do your uni homework :) Sorry can't help the professor in me.
-N
haha! Nice one Natalia and Oriental Girl!
See what happens when real girls post on a boy's blog!! ? lol
Be careful Master Peebody that you don't protest too loudly!
REAL world? There's a real worl?!
LMAO.... Great responses guys. I can see elements in what everybody is saying that I like.
Oriental girl has pointed out that computer games aren't a substitute for human contact. For me, I think limiting my time playing games solo is good. I can save up more fun for playing multiplayer, where you have the opportunity to build relationships while going nuts :) Funny, I can actually look back on certain parts of my life and regret playing games: like the time I took about 4 days off uni because I was totally trapped in Deus Ex. But then I can also remember playing Landstalker on the Mega Drive for a week, and I don't regret that at all! Hahaha... but then again I wasn't neglecting another part of my life by doing that. Maybe that's the crux of the issue, whether I neglect something else or not.
Sega totally kicked Nintendo's butt. Sonic is so much cooler than Mario. And Sega had the aforementioned best game ever to be released on anything: Landstalker!
I think Peebody is getting the irrits cos many people look down on the fantasy genre, saying that it's kiddy and dumb. Well nuts to them, I say, nuts to those!
Two of the smartest guys in ever would disagree to the point where they would write books to prove their point: Professors Lewis and Tolkein :)
I agree. I think it takes imagination and creativity and actually using your brain.
ha ha - im picturing JRR and CS, pipes clenched in teeth, tweed jackets hitting the ps2!
Now that is a funny image!
LMAO, that's the best. And they'd be playing warhammer too I reckon.
Hehehe... and Doom.
I don't think it's fantasy that's a problem, or wasting time, or even substituting human contact. But what an intimate long-term relationhship with gameboob does to one's expectations about interaction with people - that could be a problem. People don't respond the way you want them to, there aren't good cheat codes, they have delays, they uhhmmm and ahh, and get sick or have to talk to someone else, there's no instant response time, no pause button, no replay, sometimes they want to sleep or eat instead of that 24/7 business - in short, it's just easier to become impatient with them the more you interaction you have with.....the borg
Hehehe... yeah, the Borg :)
I agree! Like when I begin my trip to uni, I can't get an energy booster from the special shop and chain lightning all the cars on the Eastern Freeway so I can get there quicker.
Or do I...
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